I recently had a conversation with my husband about how I have been feeling like I have lost my place. I so often get caught up in the mundane of the day to day...laundry, cleaning, cooking...that I get consumed with the perfection of my home that I don't make time for other things that are more important...things I want to be doing. I feel guilty if I don't get everything done. I feel like I have failed as a wife when the laundry is not folded.
Then later that night, I read some blog posts...and it sounds like quite a few of you are feeling the same way.
It is my own obsession with perfection...wanting my home to have a certain image...wanting to portray the woman who has it all together. So often we get caught up in the comparison game. And while I am trying to create the home and life I think I want, I really end up compromising the life that I am desperately yearning for.
I have an hour. I have the time. But I get too caught up in my to do list.
I suppose I could create a better system. Be better disciplined. Or perhaps let go a little bit. And somehow letting go is the hardest of them all.
I desire relationships. I desire honesty. I desire creativity. And if it means the laundry isn't always done than so be it.
How do you deal with the mundane?